roommates

if you read this, you would know more about how i felt and why things are the way they are... but you might not want to face reality or truth or me... that is probably why we don't talk about it... if we talked, we might work out the stuff in the way, the stuff we are not happy about, the stuff that creeps up and causes our tension and mini-explosive moments... relationships of any kind can be tolerated for mutual benefit, but they improve when honesty actually happens and they are frustrating when frustrations are not discussed and resolved... if you read this, you could ignore it... the way you ignore the clutter most of the time... but the frustration bubbles up and bites us now and then... i can only guess that for you this is an acceptable trade off so you do not have to delve into the reasons for your betrayal of trust... for me, your not delving into it prevents me from trusting you or processing the betrayal... so we live in clutter and disarray and neither of us like it but i let it be and add to it because the frustration of lack of trust is unresolved and you have your reasons that you do not share when i ask... if you want to de-clutter, talk about it... that's the first step of doing something about it... if you read this...

oh look, a squirrel...

circumcision anyone?

a thought too far from acceptible is beyond belief (sort of a play on words)... humans would not accept eating their children as some species do, but who is to say that the other species who have survived for millions of years longer than humans have are wrong?... if humans continue populating the planet and refuse to control birth rate and resource use, the logic of survival of the fittest could overrule any construct of morality ever created... the rule of human rights is well justified in our current moral, but who will be the humans that have rights when there are too many humans and not enough food, water, and living space for all?... morality is not a constant... is it moral for survivors of a plane crash to east other survivors to survive or should all who survived the crash die?... is the story content of lord of the flies just a fiction that could never happen?... we humans think we have the answers, but there are so many possibilities we would never accept as acceptible based on our experience and concepts of right and wrong... such expansion of freethinking is beyond science as we know it, beyond belief as we know it... we depend on what we know of the universe and life on this planet to judge what is right and wrong, but everything we know could be wrong... survival in this universe may take a whole different way of thinking, feeling, logic, reason, science... it is my belief that we do not know enough to judge anything as finally right or wrong... what if this life is the hell imagined by many and after this life comes a whole different consciousness that is not about right and wrong... or what if this life is a meaningless blip that we take way too seriously and try to control with the illusion of control?... children are abused by thought and fear much more than any physical damage that can be done, but to make anything illegal we narrow our thought stream to contemporary knowledge on this small planet and while i do not argue against doing that, i just point out that it is not freeing our minds to the infonite possibilities... humans like to make things personal, egocentric, microcosmic... i am bringing an infinite universe of possibilities concept to the conversation, trying to reach well being my experience in life to what could be logical from a very different experience... or maybe i am just babbling to challenge our thinking... anything is possible :)

normal like them

it is a memory thing
how much did you forget
how much did you change in your mind
how much do you regret
how many brain cells have died
you may not want to know
most people live in denial
are you normal like them?

it is a memory thing
do you remember who you are
how many times have to redefined yourself
have you admitted it yet
how many times have you lied
you may not want to know
most people live in lies
are you normal like them?

oh it would be so easy to say
nevermind
nobody wants to be challenged like this
what fool would think this would be
a way to sell a song
if this sells then you may like a devil's kiss

it is a memory thing
how much did you forget
how much god is left in your mind
how much did you sublet
how many ways have you justified
you may not want to know
most people leave god behind
are you normal like them?

it is a memory thing
do you remember who god is
you were once part of everything
and now you are part of the fizz
in the human soft drink industry
you may not want to know
most people live in mystery
are you normal like them?

oh it would be so easy to say
nevermind
just go to your house of praye and make amends
what fool would think that this would be
a popular song
is this is cruel then you may be one who pretends
that you have more important things to think about
like stock prices and coffee blends
cuz in the end it may be more important to be right
and what is right
to be normal like them?
what is right is to be normal like them